This is going to surprise you, but I am not whining about my composition and how it’s going.
I’ve observed something very interesting about my work on Earth Dance this time around. I’m not struggling with it, which is not to say I’m just breezing along like some Mozart or Puccini, just pouring the music out onto the page (or in my case, the screen). It’s still a very hard slog, but I’m not struggling.
Instead, I just excrete some work out there and play with it for a while, and then without any hesitation whatsoever skip a few measures, put in a double barline to remind myself of the new place, and start over with new excretions. No pain, no gain, and no sweat.
I’m also sanguine about where the whole thing is going. If I don’t like the sound of it, if it’s not chthonic enough, I’m OK with that. Just start a new excretion.
If I like what I hear, also no problem. I’m not at all concerned about taking it in a wrong direction, or even in any direction.
All I’m doing is excreting. Sooner or later, I will hear what I want to hear.
I have come to understand my working habits and my approach to success. Why should I worry about what I’m pretty sure is going to be a purely entertaining piece?
No, I’m not ready to share any of it yet.